Right now I....

I'm a pretty crappy friend....

Sorry to all my friends I've let down recently.

Don't give up on me.

February's a rollercoaster....

So Janaury flew by faster than I expected it too. Good and bad I guess...one step closer to seeing Gabi, one step closer to it be summertime.

I feel like maybe I've been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster...though I'm pretty able to keep it in check in public. Which is good because I think I have enough people who think I'm pretty crazy! =P

Work has keep not me busy not only physically but mentally as well. At work I don't have time to think about how far away friends are and I have to think more on how I'm NOT going to yell at this indignant parent.

Really. If I wasn't such a kind person I'd be jumping over the door and body-slamming this rude parents who think they have the right to everything just because it's a free service.

My niceness is probably what's going to be the end of me....people are going to walk all over me or I'm going to snap and turn into a cracked out mega panda and breathe fire on everyone.

Hahaha I just pictured that in my head....ehhh...getting back on track!

I feel like working in Smaland with all these rude people is starting to give me sort of a backbone? I've definately been standing up for myself more. Seriously, if you have something to say that involves me, don't beat around the bush. Please, say it to my face because I can take it and I will have something to say. Ergo it may not be anything rude or snappy, but I will express my opinion in a non-yelling tone. So please, hit me with your best shot. I'll be praying for you afterwards. =D

Haven't had much time to hang with friends. That makes me sad. I feel like I haven't talked to anyone in such a long time. Alot is really my fault though. I pick up shifts when I can and then at the end of the day I'm too exhausted to go see anyone so I just end up going home, showering, then it's pj's, tv-time and and then bed-time. I haven't even been able to continue on 'Atlas Shrugged' which could be viewed as good or bad. LoL. That book has some huge vernacular in it...I need a dictionary next to me as I'm reading it.

But seriously, I need to get better at keeping in touch. Maybe then I'll be less lonely. Okay I seriously just need to learn how to pick up my cell and call people. It's my downfall....besides my kindness. lol.

Soooo favorite website at the moment? http://www.postsecret.com/

Seriously..I LOVE that site. I check it every sunday to see the new secrets that are sent in. For those of you who don't know what it is, here's an small descreption from the wikipedia page :

Postsecret is an ongoing community mail art project, created by Frank Warren, in which people mail in their secrets anonymously on one side of a homemade postcard. Select secrets are then posted on the postsecret website, or used in Postsecret's books, or museum exhibits.

I'm one of those people who check it every sunday. Maybe one day I'll get brave and send in my own secret.

Hmm I've been playing with my sewing machine and reconstructing t-shirts and pants as of lately. Thrift stores are my best friends all over again!

Uhmm...music as of late? Hmm...I'm pretty excited for the new 'Gorillaz' album called 'Plastic Beach'. Comes out really soon. Yayyy! Hmm...but I've been listening to everything because I like all types of music weather I'm just listening to the beat or the words.

I have to babysit later but I don't have to leave for awhile....I think I'll have a dance party in my room with Lady Gaga.

P.P.S....someone please take my grandmother...seriously. This is getting out of hand. I'm ready to jump in front of a bus. =D

January

I've learned alot about myself in the past month.

At first I was used to the routine and the quiet.

Now I miss being around people all the time.

I miss the laughing, staying up until 4 a.m talking about life and anything that popped into our heads.

I have to get used to the routine again and get used to being alittle lonely.

July cannot get here any faster.

Thirty Seconds To Mars - Kings + Queens

New music video by 30 Seconds to Mars for their new single "Kings and Queens"
This is one of the best videos that I've seen in awhile. Check it out.

Thirty Seconds To Mars - Kings + Queens - HD Video by 30 Seconds to Mars - MySpace Video

Books I want to read....

Atlas Shrugged - Ayn Rand

The Foutainhead - Ayn Rand

We the Living - Ayn Rand

East of Eden - John Steinback

Death in Spring - Merce Rodoreda

One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez

These are just a few of the books right now that I've been itching to read. There's a whole bunch more that I don't feel like listing because your eyes would probably start to bleed. But I figured it was time I moved on to different types of stories than the ones I'm used to reading. You know....lol, books with plots meant for teens and highschool. Don't get me wrong, those books will always hold a special place in my heart and I'm sure I'll still buy them when a new title catches my eye. At the moment though, I'm moving on to some different books.

What books are you reading right now? Have any good suggestions? Favorites?

Tell meee!

<3

Reasons Why I Even Bother to Wake-Up in the Morning.

Have you ever loved someone or something so much that they were literally one of the reasons why you even bother to wake up in the morning and roll out of your bed?

I defintely do in my life. And though I know for a fact that I have more than one, I want to touch on the main two people who have such an impact of my life.

They're names are Aiden and Kylie. They are the little brother and sister that God never gave me when I was younger and now I understand why he didn't. He knew that later, he'd place these two precious treasures in my life to be my little brother and sister. I love these little ones so very, very, much and I would kill or die for them. They are two of the reasons why I get out of bed in the morning. They make me want to be a better person. I love them with all of my heart, and I love their mom and dad just as much. Here's the scoop.

It started with Aiden. It was love at first sight. He was the cutest, squishiest, lovable baby I'd seen, and little did I know I'd create such a strong bond with him. He's my little Goofy-Goober, ask him and he'll tell you. I can't belive how much he has grown.

Then came Kylie.

With Aiden I thought that everything was complete. I had the little brother I always wanted, and he loved me like a big sister. I watched him grow up, we'd play superheroes and other games and learn things and do things together Tara. And then one day we heard about Kylie and I was blessed with a little sister.

When she first came, it was love at first sight all over agian. She's the little sister I've always wanted to have. I have someone to play dress up and dolls and house with. I share her bed when I spend the night and belive it or not we have have pretty interesting conversations. She was sooooo squishy! And now I look at her and I can't belive the time has flown by so quickly! She's 3 years old now and so outgoing, and sassy and loving. My heart flutters when I hear her say "Kahni I love you" or "You night-night with me!"

These are my siblings. They love me and I love them. It's the greatest feeling when I get told that they call me a big sister and say that their mommy has 3 kids.

Aiden and Kylie make me want to better myself so that I can be a good example in their lives. I feel like I can't say enough how much I love them or how much they do in my life. I would do just about anything for them.
When I play with them and watch them be goofy, my heart just wants to explode with all the love they give me. I am blessed to have them.

So here's my question to you....

Tell me what is important to you? Do you have someone or something is a reason why you live?

There's more of these to come, and Aiden and Kylie are my firsts.

I'm An Insomniac These Days...

Really....I haven't been able to get sleepy until like 1 A.M.

This in turn leaves room for much thinking for my wandering brain. Fun?

So here I sit thinking, and deciding to type about something that's been on my mind, that being how people treat each other.
I've said it a million times and I will continue to say it until I am blue in the face. I simply DO NOT understand people that are mean.
What's the point? Why can't people just get along? Why is it always, "That person totally looked at me funny? I hate them now!", or "Did you see what so-in-so was wearing?"

BlahBlahBlahBlahBlah is all I hear. I don't care what mean thing someone has to say about someone else because, chances are....the person your talking about happens to be a friend of mine, and sorry, I don't like hearing someone talk mean about somebody who is my friend so I'm not going to say anything except maybe look at you with a raised eyebrow or something. I mean, didn't we pass this whole stage in highschool?

Okay, so of course I know that not everybody is going to get along. People are just going to get rubbed the wrong way, personalites will clash, people will argue. We're human and it's just a fact of life. It's not my fault that I look at the world with "Rose-Colored Glasses" and I can't help be believe that there is some sort of good within every person. I could be wrong though....if you haven't noticed, I tend to be abit naive.

Alright...I'm getting off my soapbox now.
Uhm...to anybody who even reads this....care to leave comments? Opinions? Agree or Disagree?
Replies make me a happy mascot. Heehee.

Dear IKEA Customers....

Here are a few words of advice that will make yours and my life much, much, easier when you shop:

1. Please come up the escalator and start in the showroom first if you've never shopped before. Going straight to Martkethall will only confuse you and make your trip longer than you want it to be.

2. If there's no carts left, please grab a yellow bag or try to find an abandoned one. I don't keep any stored by my I-Tower, so grab one when you enter first.

3. Please grab a Map/Shopping List and a Pencil or ask me for one because truly, your going to need it.

4. P-Tags are meant to stay ON the merchandise, not ripped off and taken with you, or thrown onto the floor.

5. The same goes for red locators. They are stapled in for a reason and usually when something stapled one to two times it usaually, 100% of the time means "DO NOT TAKE".

6. Please...don't pull on the banners. It takes a long time to get those little plastic ends slid correctly on the top and bottom of them and they rip oh so easily. Really...if you just don't touch...and keep your kids from pulling on them...it'd make things alot more fun! Really!

7. I don't mind if your kids make a mess...infact I encourage it to see how much they like the toys and then will beg and beg you to buy it for them but you dear customer are a grown person. I don't expect you to make a mess such as leaving things on the floor...that's kinda dangerous. If you knock something over....can't you take like 2 minutes to pick it up?

8. Don't hang on the Ekkore swings or hanging rings....I mean really...it may be hanging from the ceiling but that doesn't mean it will hold all of your weight. It's meant to look at and touch...but not to hang.

9. No..I will not sell you a display. I can't take down any of the lights even if I wanted too so please don't get angry at me, it's not my fault. Is it so hard to be patient for another week for it to come back in? Getting angry at me will not make it appear out of thin air or make me change my mind. And if you take a display thinking you've outsmarted me, just wait until you get to the cash lanes, they'll only tell you same thing. So why don't you save me a trip to go backs and yourself the trouble of lugging something heavy around and just leave the displays alone?

10. Once you've entered, the only way out of the store is going through Markethall. Please let me finish so I can tell you the easiest way (ie: Just stay to your left!) out. Telling me you want to get to the front of the store the fastest way possible and looking at the locked double doors isn't going to make you get there any faster. Those doors are locked for a reason and yes you HAVE to go THROUGH MARKETHALL. Throwing a fit, getting mad at me and telling me that the way the store is set is ridiculous won't change anything. The only way I will get those doors open is if it's an emergency (in which case LP would probably be handling that matter), or if you need to get a wheelchair A.S.A.P. I'm sorry if you want to get to the Swedish Food Market or an ice cream from the Bistro....you still have to go through Markethall.

So IKEA customers...if you just keep all this in mind, your trip will be so much more joyous and you'll be happy, which makes me happy.

Ughhhhhh....lol. I can dream right? I can only dream that customers would follow those rules. Buuut I love to help out, so if the customers did everything right, that would mean that I wouldn't have anything to do! =D Which would be boring.
I love my job, and I love being able to help the customers make orders and show them how to shop at our wonderful store.

You can pick your clothes...

You can pick your nose, and you can pick your friends but if there's one thing in the world you can't pick, it's your family. Your pretty much stuck with them for better or for worse and you have no say in the matter. I've been coming to realize this for myself recently. I think if we lived in a world where you could pick your family, I'd have most of my very best friends chosen. But the world doesn't work like that, and like it or not, you've got to get along and love what you have right?

Now don't get me wrong, I love my family very much. They were a whole barrel of monkeys when I was alot younger and they put up with my shenanigans and wanting to always play dress up and tugging at their shirts and and hiding behind their legs. I guess as you get old things just change. Being the youngest in my family I babied alot whining always got my cousins to break down and play with me. But the age gap made things difficult. I was still young when my cousins started highschool and the time of barbie dolls and playing house came to an end and when I was over visiting and friends where there...I distinctly remember getting bribed to play somewhere else. But that must be the way it goes when your the baby and still to young to understand about boys and make-up and girl talk.

Now that we're all grown up and theres no more babies left...but I can't help but feel the gap is still there. We grew up and went our separate ways and we have our different friends and spend our time doing what we like and maybe not thinking to much about what one of cousins may be doing at the moment. Sure we come together for family parties and ask what we've been up to and how life is going and then end up staying for an hour or two before leaving to go and find a more exciting way to spend our night. Now it's coming to a point where we all have to band together and I'm finding that keeping in touch is abit...difficult? I'd like to say that my family is a close-knit group...but really I only think it applies to the older people, (ie: the aunts and uncules and older, older cousins).
I think in the end everything is going to come together fine and stuff...hopefully.

Back to Blogging

After not having blogged in like a zillion years....but really only a few months, I've decided to give it another shot.I've been writing in my journal, but y'know...after awhile my hand gets kinda tired and with this I can share my thoughts with other people and put cool pictures on here and what not.

I really don't know where to start though. So much has been going on in my life and filling up all my free time, sometimes I just wanna scream, but I can't complain too much because besides all the craziness there has also been alot of good.
Driving...this is something that I am doing non-stop...for everyone. I mean, yes I go places and do things for myself....but now I'm also playing taxi as well. I guess it just comes with the territory. On the plus though, I do get to hangout with friends alot more.

Hmm...music. Music is something I'm getting more into. No, not playing an instrument...I certainly have no time to do anything like that. But I have been listening to it alot more and all different types. I still avoid rap and most hip-hop though.....it just doesn't settle well with my brain, haha. But I find myself going to more concerts and buy more cd's and finding myself browsing iTunes (love the free section!), and checking out music that other people have been listening to. I was thinking to myself, music is a form of art and like art, people aren't always going to like or understand it. But who are we to say what music is bad just because we don't like it? I mean, that doesn't include gross music that curses or talkes about bad things...yeah I think that music is bad....but like if one person listens to one band and loves it, then another person listens and doesn't like it, why should the person who dislikes the music say "Oh that's bad", or "You have crappy taste in music?". I find that alittle mean...but maybe that's just me. Maybe that music speaks to that person. Maybe a certain song that we don't care to listen to, is the one song that makes the other person feel something.
I'm the type of person who is open to most any type of music....excluding like that scary music that's nothing but screaming....and like I said previouisly rap and what not, but I don't really think it's fair when somone says "Oh you have bad taste in music because you listen to the raido or go see this band or that bad...etc..."
Maybe I'm just rambling on and on....I'm not sure, but does what I say make any sense to anyone out there? Do you get what I'm saying?
I'm moving on now....

Drama. This is something I thought I left back in highschool. Apparently not.
Drama follows you wherever you...kinda like that annoying monkey on your back. Ugh. I deal with it. I keep my mouth shut and listen and don't get involved. I've decided to sit back, grab my popcorn and watch the show. Something funny is bound to happen right?

Okay well I think I've gone and made this post long enough right? Are your eyes bleeding yet? Comments, thoughts, opinions about anything here? Any of that would be lovely. Let's talk.
Until next time readers!

Peace

<3

It's been awhile....

I noticed I haven't done a blog in like a million years.
Which is sad because I really like blogging and keeping the world updated on what's going on in my life...that is if people actually read this thing. LoL. I bet like 2 people only really read it right? Ahh whatever.
So I just got back from the beach, my most favorite place on earth and I would do anything to go back. Tampa's to rainy these days.
Summer's here, I can feel it. Let the fun begin!

Oh Star...

....fall down on me....

Finally I get a moment!

Life has just been that busy that I haven't had the chance to blog or check my e-mails or even stay up late! Yeah...that's right. This girl is in bed by 10 p.m these days! I'm just so sleepy I can't keep my eyes open!
So these days at IKEA, there's definately less building and more arranging and p-tagging(price tagging for you non-IKEA speakers XD) going on. And we're ahead of schedule in the children's department so they have me and my other co-workers moving around constantly.
This Sunday I have to work 2-9 pm which is going to be interesting seeing as how I've never worked nights before at anytype of job. But I think that's it's going to be really fun because I'll have all of my new friends there. I think that might have to be the best part about working at IKEA. I've made sooooooo many new friends! I know I sound like I'm just going on and on about it but it's so true. I make a new friend everyday, lol. It's gotten to the point where one of my co-workers named Amanda says, "You know everyone don't you! " lol. Oh, and I was on T.V because the news people have been coming to visit us like on a regular basis.

So anyways, moving on from my awesome job...uhm that's bascially been my life. Eat, sleep and go to work! Haha...I have no life.
This past weekend I went garage saling with Tara Fernandez and the youth group girls. It was quite fun and I found some cute things to take home with me. Haley spent the night at my house and I took her to church the next day. I am so glaaad that it's almost Friday.

Twilight gets released this Saturday!! I'm releasing my inner fan girl! lol. I'm excited, and yes I'm going to buy it. Also...I need to buy pants...not that you would care though. hehe.
Anyways...I think I'm going to go straighten my hair....love to all!

P.S. My friend Matt Hires left for tour today. We'll miss you! Have fun!

Peace

<3

Code 1000

So today at work was everyones first official Code 1000. For those of you who don't know IKEA terms, Code 1000 means there's an emergency and we need to evacuate the building.
Well here's what happened.
All the people working went outside for their 15 min break and we're all standing there talking. The fire alarms have been going off all day because they are testing them and so is this one automated voice saying "This is a test of the Code 1000". So as we're standing there, some people notice there's all this water gushing from the top and bottom of a door and that the cement is soaked and what not. That's when me and my friend here "Attention IKEA Co-Workers. This is Code 1000". Thinking nothing of it we casually walk to the end of the building laugh it off. As we're talking I hear Cristian,(one to the head managers) yell to everyone. "Hey code 1000! this is not a drill!!"
That's when I see all the manager yelling "Get away from the building!" and running and what not. So that's when I grab my buddy Stacy and start walking quite quickly toward the parking lot. They tell us to separate by our departments and what not and then we have to gather to get roll called.
That's when the firetrucks show up and then boom...after a few mins it's over....nothing...lol.
Turns out a pipe bursted and was gushing water everywhere.......
Yeah...that's what I was thinking....lame!
They evacuated us for water?! Grr...but I guess that's just routine. So after all that we back inside to finish work.
And that was my excitment for the day.....I'm dead tired. Gonna pack my bag for tommrow, edit pictures until 9:30 and then peacefully drift into oblivion.

Peace

<3

IKEAAAAA!!

Work is going so great! Like unbeliveably great. Each day I meet new people and make new friends. Everyone is so so so nice and kind and willing to help one another. Almost everyone I've spoken with is willing to give me a ride home when I need one. I am having the time of my life!

Granted my hands are covered in tiny little cuts, my knees are bruised and my arms are sore...it's all incredibly worth it and I wouldn't trade this new job for anything!....Well except maybe a job with Pediatric Rehab but IKEA will do for a long time.
They're still hire more people if you wanna come and join me LOL.
Today I built soooo many shelf thingy's called Trofast. Everything has a swedish name and I feel kinda cool saying the different names of the products. lol. Who knew that building could be so much fun right? I'm really looking forward to opening day and having more time to update my blogs more often. Oh, and pictures of course.

So that's bascially what I'll be doing for the next two weeks, building from 8-5 with a 1 hour break and two 15 minute breaks. Oh, and we don't have to wear hardhats anymore! Yay no more helmet hair! And we can start using our cards to clock in. It's all happening so quickly!

So that's it for now...I'm dead tired at 6:24 pm. I'm off to dinner, amercian idol and then bed....who knows...I might even pass out beforehand.
Farewell mon ami's, I bid thee adieu.

Peace,

<3

New Shoes...

New black Vans for work. They're really comfy and let's face it...Van's are just awesome...but Converse are still my number one choice of shoe...just sayin...<3

I have alot of blogs....

And lately I've been thinking about also creating a Livejournal and Tumblr account. LoL.
You must be thinking, "Kianni...why so many blogs?" It's because different friends have different blogs and can only comment on certain ones and I like to be able to have that connection with my other blogging buddies.
Plussss I found this site called Ping.fm that will let me update most of my blogs just from that site! It's pretty cool. The only blogs I wouldn't be able to update are my myspace and deviantart one..but hey, it's all good.
So I'm off thinking about making a couple more blogs....any opinions?

Peace

<3

Testing Ping.fm

This is just a test post for my ping.fm account to see if it's working the way it should. Fingers crossed!

Hooray for Ping.fm!!

So I found this site where I can update all of my journal entries at one time! Now I just need to figure out how to post pictures and what not.
haha...I feel so accomplished today! Yes!

Sorry It's Been Awhile...

I just feel like I don't have anything interesting to write about lately.
Help me get out of this rut!