Right now I....

I'm a pretty crappy friend....

Sorry to all my friends I've let down recently.

Don't give up on me.

February's a rollercoaster....

So Janaury flew by faster than I expected it too. Good and bad I guess...one step closer to seeing Gabi, one step closer to it be summertime.

I feel like maybe I've been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster...though I'm pretty able to keep it in check in public. Which is good because I think I have enough people who think I'm pretty crazy! =P

Work has keep not me busy not only physically but mentally as well. At work I don't have time to think about how far away friends are and I have to think more on how I'm NOT going to yell at this indignant parent.

Really. If I wasn't such a kind person I'd be jumping over the door and body-slamming this rude parents who think they have the right to everything just because it's a free service.

My niceness is probably what's going to be the end of me....people are going to walk all over me or I'm going to snap and turn into a cracked out mega panda and breathe fire on everyone.

Hahaha I just pictured that in my head....ehhh...getting back on track!

I feel like working in Smaland with all these rude people is starting to give me sort of a backbone? I've definately been standing up for myself more. Seriously, if you have something to say that involves me, don't beat around the bush. Please, say it to my face because I can take it and I will have something to say. Ergo it may not be anything rude or snappy, but I will express my opinion in a non-yelling tone. So please, hit me with your best shot. I'll be praying for you afterwards. =D

Haven't had much time to hang with friends. That makes me sad. I feel like I haven't talked to anyone in such a long time. Alot is really my fault though. I pick up shifts when I can and then at the end of the day I'm too exhausted to go see anyone so I just end up going home, showering, then it's pj's, tv-time and and then bed-time. I haven't even been able to continue on 'Atlas Shrugged' which could be viewed as good or bad. LoL. That book has some huge vernacular in it...I need a dictionary next to me as I'm reading it.

But seriously, I need to get better at keeping in touch. Maybe then I'll be less lonely. Okay I seriously just need to learn how to pick up my cell and call people. It's my downfall....besides my kindness. lol.

Soooo favorite website at the moment? http://www.postsecret.com/

Seriously..I LOVE that site. I check it every sunday to see the new secrets that are sent in. For those of you who don't know what it is, here's an small descreption from the wikipedia page :

Postsecret is an ongoing community mail art project, created by Frank Warren, in which people mail in their secrets anonymously on one side of a homemade postcard. Select secrets are then posted on the postsecret website, or used in Postsecret's books, or museum exhibits.

I'm one of those people who check it every sunday. Maybe one day I'll get brave and send in my own secret.

Hmm I've been playing with my sewing machine and reconstructing t-shirts and pants as of lately. Thrift stores are my best friends all over again!

Uhmm...music as of late? Hmm...I'm pretty excited for the new 'Gorillaz' album called 'Plastic Beach'. Comes out really soon. Yayyy! Hmm...but I've been listening to everything because I like all types of music weather I'm just listening to the beat or the words.

I have to babysit later but I don't have to leave for awhile....I think I'll have a dance party in my room with Lady Gaga.

P.P.S....someone please take my grandmother...seriously. This is getting out of hand. I'm ready to jump in front of a bus. =D